I stole money from my employers, paid it back and still did not learn the lesson. I stole again and am now paying back slowly what the court tells me to pay and am on probation. This has been for 10 years now (it was a huge amount of money). I am now on Social Security Disability. Also, the man I was living with gave me money to help with the restitution and I told him I would pay it back. The ex-live in has not asked for the money. So after my honest seeking of what Jesus wants me to do and praying about this issue I continue to get peace, but am puzzled about paying this money back.
If for the first time in my adult life I am peaceful, am dedicated and committed to reading scripture daily, pray for the world, churches, government, my church, homeless, abused people, sick people and my family and friends and I thank God daily for what He is doing in my life…how can this be if I am still in sin by not paying the money back to my ex-boyfriend to this date. When God tells us He remembers our sin no more then how can my not making restitution on that loan keep me either out of heaven or be judged on a sin already forgiven when I am in front of God on judgement day?
How is that sin any different from any other such as one having filthy thoughts about a person in their heart even though they don’t act on it and ask forgiveness…doesn’t God forgive all sin when we truly repent and turn away. In my heart I want to pay this money back but at this time can not. Please help clear this up for me. I read a story from someone else on your site and it perplexed me with the answer given even though I understood…does that make sense?